yeah, it's been forever. so here's what i'm wantin' to yap about. what did you think about the bitterness message last night? how did it effect you? are you struggling to forgive someone? what's been holding you back from forgiving. if you have a great story of forgiving and letting the bitter root die, will you share it? and lastly, who wants more chocolate!
looking forward to you responses! love ya'll!
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I have a story... it's been something I have been struggling to get past for several monthes now.
I have an uncle that I am SUPER close to, that was until he had kids 3 years ago. He changed, and I mean MAJORLY changed. It's just not the same...and I am resentful of the situation, and a bit bitter about it too. My cousins are 2 & 3 years old and I never get to spend ANY TIME with them. They are supposed to be the flowergirls in my wedding in a couple monthes. I figured if I made them part of my wedding, that things would be different, but still, NO TRUST whatsoever. I am not allowed to babysit them, or even see them without my uncle and aunt HOVERING over them. I can count on my hands how many times in their lives I've seen them. Part of me really just wants to say FORGET YOU to them, and then another part of me wants to just forgive them...but I just want things to change. I ask myself why they don't trust me, I hold more certifications than most people do, and have advanced life-saving skills too, so in case god-forbid something happens, I know what to do. What hurts more is that the secretary at my dad's work(where all my uncles/grandpa)work is the babysitter for them...a complete stranger.
I have voiced my strain with my uncle and he has promised me that I would get the opportunity...but then openly talks in front of me yesterday(sunday) at my uncle's party how much they LOVE PAM, THEY ARE SO THANKFUL FOR HER AS A BABYSITTER. It just frustrates me!
Last night, I sat in the message,went home, and sat in the darkness of my room...thinking to myself that I needed to forgive them, try to make things work with them. God really has been holding this situation over my head today, and causing me to really think if this is really worth the bitterness that I have had for the last few monthes. Although I Still haven't figured out what I'm going to exactly do, I know that God is going to help me.
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